I want you to read my tweets to tell me about them. im not putting them on fb or text them. Im to scared of u not replying or wat ull say -- potc13 (@potc13)

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My heart aches. I want to be in your arms as i cry. I want to hear yu say im beauiful.even when i say im not. I need a hug. -- potc13 (@potc13)

My heart is crying. It hurts. I wonder why? Why does this pain come? Is it the pain of knowing i will never be yours? -- potc13 (@potc13)

#ilikeitwhen I feel like I fit in, normal, when you make me happy :-) -- potc13 (@potc13)

I h8 almost everything abt myself wonder abt everything question every1 I dont fear death jst the outcom bt I kno itll make every1 happier -- potc13 (@potc13)

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It doesn't matter how he makes me feel. I still want friends, can't I be a normal girl? I OUTCAST MYSELF I BULLY MYSELF!,why am I the freak? -- potc13 (@potc13)

It's always on my mind because I'm always texting him. He loves me, do I love him? What makes me special? -- potc13 (@potc13)

I think I do love him...but I don't know... :-( -- potc13 (@potc13)

If i may be bold, i dont mean to be rude, but i dont see myself as worth anyones time, but what is it that made you lov me? (9th) my smile:) -- potc13 (@potc13)

I am pretty sure that i love him. For many reasons but most of all how he makes me feel, about my self :-) -- potc13 (@potc13)

"love is not seen, it's felt. It's how he makes me feel, how he makes me smile. I know it's love!" -- potc13 (@potc13)

Later!

Making key lime pie then going to the beach...maybe alon to the beach but w.e.! Idc I'm going to the beach!... later, when the sun is up!

... yeah I'm still up...

Ps

Btw guys, for like what's on my mind and sh-t go to theresno1likeme.blogspot.com its me just more personal... so I have my diary and an all about me blog.. :-) okay. Night y'all

Dec. 23,2011 12:07

Hehe I just had to do that ok so I have been thinking a lot the year... mainly about love.

Will I find It? How do I know? Does he really love me? Am I annoying him or pushing him away? How can I get to know him better..  am I ready to be his gf? Or am I pushing myself away? Do I love him?

Okay so yeah... but this year it was 3 ... at the same time, then 2...now one is inoring me, oh well and.the other is being like my best friend. Ilove him! ..but do I really?

One thing really troubleing me is do I have to let go of josh, my first love? My 1love4me4everandaday, just to move on and see love when I get it back? Yes... I'm in love with my story charater.. and its fb offical, josh winters... funny thing is no one notices its fake... but these 3 guys and two other guys and a girl know he is fake...wow though... how do I. Dump him? How... I mean since I was 12! I can't just drop him...right?

Well my friend stopped texting ...its morning... I need sleep.. night y'all! And, please comment what you think. Nighty night!.. oh pics tomorrow! :-) and happy holidays!

omg

am i really that sh*ty that people don't coment? woh just straight up tell me i'm a loser then!  omg i'm going back to my clubpenguin blog, at lest people comment there!

Other people's love is my pain (each paragraph is a new edit)

why do I let it hurt me? Why? why, can't I just live with it? why must I put my self down? why do I enjoy this pain? why do i inflict this pain on me? will someone help me rid my self of it? or will i just push them away? push them to far, and they never come back?

One day I will push to hard, to far. People alread don't care, are alreday distant. I live alone, but yet not. I'm in my own world, sad, mad, hurt. In ur world I'm happy looking. Its all an act. When I write a story, I want it to be happy, bc I am not. I want love and happiness but I don't have it. I push I t away. That's why I write that I have it, its a mask, of things I want but I'm to concided to know I have them I just pushed it away.

I had to feel something, but everytime I say I'm not good enough, it won't happen... the bliss and the pain it brings makes me thing, makes me hope, make me wonder.... it makes me hurt myself, kno the truth... which is and always was... but I didn't always know it...

is it love?

I have to let go of one thing to move on. I try to move on without letting go. I found something, I'm sure. Can I still hold on, but yet move forward?

Does it hold me back? How do I know? Is it true? Is it false? Is it a lie? How do I know? Can I be sure?

Is it what I hoped? Is it what I want? Is it what I dream? No it's not, it can't be, I'm not.