You know something? This guy, he kills me every day, every day, but i respect him. Even if it was not him saying it or his face but JUST the fact that they where HIS words saying I was a childish worthless piece of sh** I don't care that it kills me every day, or now I can't see him everyday. Leaving him... Him leaving me was the best thing for both of us even though I hated that feeling I also liked it I didn’t love him, didn’t want to tolerate him. I felt like Bella in New Moon, but I welcomed the pain. You, I feel like a worthless piece of cr** and I don’t like it! I feel like a watched pot, a freak show, even more worthless then I already think I am. I don’t like it, it makes me feel like I will never find love. I already know that! I don’t need anyone to tell me that! I know I need my self esteem to rise, but when i get treated like this it makes me want to die. if your name pops up on my phone I feel like dieing instantly or I smile depending on what you said or did! I can’t stand for this any more. and I was listening to Pandora as I wrote this, four songs came up but the last two where perfect. How to Save a Life by The Fray and You’re Not Sorry by Taylor Swift.
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