venting

HEYYYY, im just going to vent as i listen to thousandfoot krutch (thousand foot krutch playlist on youtube)...


i dont know how other kids do it! they go to the movies EVERY WEEKEND!!!! (I DON'T HAVE MONEY OR THE FRIENDS!! I JUST KNOW PEOPLE!) they are in MANY clubs at school! I'M IN ONE AND AM DIEING!!! I really want to do the ASL club so I could learn ASL, but i can't I dont have time, and i need a job to pay for the sport med i'm in... wow $150+ (insurence and more) is a lot when it has to come from a jobless high schooler that still needs to buy a class ring!!! how do normal kids do it???? huh? make friends, make time, make money, get all they can outa school, pass school, be in 3+ clubs, and still have free time??? huh???? (crying) i just cant do it idk what made me think i could,, but here i am sinking lower and lower... help me please tell me how you do it please i want to do the ASL club but i think i havta pay for it, make money get a job and do sport med bc my dad wants me to be a doc, but i want to major in sign language trancalation and minister though that some how and minor in photography, but my dad says that you cant do any thing majorig in sign language i should just drop outa high school and forget collage right? well idk how i will survive high school if i stay... doing what my dad wants and..... not being happy. i should just get a job at starbucks and since im in sport med i know CPR if someone chokes on a scone i can save their life... and since i wont ever get marided because guys just see me as a sister or no one at all just, (sigh, stops crying) there i would have no problem at all...............