In other news

Look what I'm getting! And what I saw! And the sky! Now at me! And now comment!

So on my way to school (because all cool interesting stories start that way, huh?)

So on my way to school I think it was a litte baby humming bird (because they're not to small already right? Yes I enjoy sassing myself) with a broken wing. so I stopped.... and with that 5 mins of the bird hopping away it took me almost an hour to get here.... if I woulda left at 5 id be late for my class.... so I should leave at 4 or 3:30 so I can rest and do shit....

Todays happenings

I went to work... found out I got a rase :) my dad bought me the life proof case that broke and I lost as an early birthday gift, he is stressing about it and working late.... I'm sorry that its all my fault..... he complains when I do it.... so I'm trying to give it all to the Lord and not dewl on it.... and he brings it up like I have to dewl on it... I have to worry about it.. I offered to pay him back and he said no it was a gift I said ok..... I know I lost it I'm sorry... I know it broke I know u paied $75 for it okay?? I'm thinking where is it... but I'm not spending every waking hour on it... okmay??? I'm sorry!

.........................any ways.... I read nehemiah 2 yesterday, and pushed aside my bible a few times today... I should read chapter 3... I also plaied potco for a while today, that maded me happy.... that's why I heavnt read yet.... and my dad came in my room... as I was praying for help to find the bible.. and I had to vent....

They are shuting down potco!

I'm really sad! .... idk... first vmk now potco?

My readings today #1

I've desided I want to read nehemiah. I have a study bible I will take notes and write wht I found interesting... I have no clue what ill read next so read what I do and post what u found interesting.

Chapter 1

I learned that Nehemiah is the only old testament book writen in first person.

Kislev is the 9th month in the jewish calender after the exile.

The book was writen "in the month of Kislev in the twentieth year"

Nehemiah was cupbearer to the king. (Okay that I knew)

But its an interesting book... I can't wait to finish it.

Reopening

I should make a guest book on both my blogs and reopen them... sorry if some of yall missed my blogs. Also I will try to post more

Starbucks long time no see (7-25)

So I've been here for a few mins last time was like months ago..... I stormed out of the house bc my Bro and I switch rooms and he was stealing my movies and games. So now I'm here. 

With my surprise sweet iced tea idk what it is it's good though

Today's pictures :) more to come (8-8)

Listening to emo playlist (aka bad day mix) 

Today

I don't want to know ill end up killing my self ill wait till morning..... Ill be with a friend text another I will put it off I don't want to kno I don't want to hurt I don't want to die

So it's sweeter now lol

(Playing with a cut in my mouth)

song of the day

flashlight by eleventyseven

Would they try to fix me?

I want to tell my parents I'm bi

I'm scared to tell them I'm bi, what if they kick me out? What if they send me away? Idk, I'm scared. I have a boyfriend but they may still this it's wrong, they are Christians and at my church some people were told to leave for time being because of sins. I was half expecting my name to be said..... I don't think it's wrong but I'm scared what my parents will say or do.

I pissed him off and i always do

..............why doesn't he leave?.......I piss him off he yells we get on with out life........

Once I had a major melt down at school, I just met him, barly knew him.......he said he handled worce.........kinda just out of beastly.........but why didn't he leave then? He soulda known I was just truble from there on out..........

Sk08 cont.

Oh yeah and it is not wifi compatable, and no apps.... not with out data.... and it won't notify me of texts with out data... stupid

Sk08 turned on

And I finaly figured out how to play snowbored.......... after I can't use my sim card anymore

My hair went from a black to red blonde to black to red to blonde red to a dull light brown... or dark dirty blonde

Since saturday.

......since Saturday my days have been kinda eventfull, got kicked out, talked to marines, talked out of marines, thought I got broken up with, now taking abreak, lost trust, been mistrused.......waiting to see if aero is going to hier me...................and my emtions where everywhere from Saturday to half of Monday........I'm good now.... let's see how this all plays out.... pray for me that I get this job if its God's will? Comment? I need people... friends right now..... thanks

I said no

I'm not taking the test joining the marines...I'm not...I can't

Moms a pointed why?

I'm at the mall nowhere is open but places are hiering..online.......I'm trying can I gey credit for that?

I am so sure he said that so i wont listen to it

But I did, I wondered if a jenny stole his phone

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I have to take the avmed tomorrow..............now .........................I don't want to do this..............................

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I need to work on speeking spanish................and I need food

Im not having any luck getting a job anywhere

If u guys know of places that are hiring let me know

almost all my posts r a day behind....the last two are yesterday

And today I'm calling the bank and applying for a job.....yay

My sister stinks...like some thing died

Race day

Today I am going to a race :) and yesterday I did the hardest thing ever............

The firstst two post

Those posts whr yesterday at 7pm jst so u know

This is mainly for me

I'm bi
Yeah I'm dating a dude, that doesn't mean shit, I'm not straight
I thought I was a lesbian
I'm not
I thought I was straight... or I wanted to be
But I'm bi
I'm drawn more to girls then guys...... maybe bc they show off their bodys... but I find it sexy
I am bi
And I love my boyfriend........
I just had to say that for me...

Today

I might go to the marnes, dad pushed me then I said yes and dad said no..... I'm starting to think I rushed it.... my test is on Tuesday...... I hope I get that 50 I need..............after that........I ...........idk........................I changed my mind?..........train for bootcamp then say no?.................what do I do?

Im sorry

I know u know my blog, and I hope u know this is for u........and I hope I'm right................... look, I'm sry about all the crap I put u through, u whr annoying me........and I'm sorry............and u hurt me to..............................I just wnt u to know I'm sorry..................and I would like to be forgiven............or punched in the face.......................seeing u on Saturday.........annoyed me bc u couldn't pass by like normal.......u ran..................and I kn.ew u reconnized me.........and I tried to change...........how I look how I act...........how I feel........................I really am sorry..............whn I first met u I thought u whr cool...................I wnted a friend.........not someone to fight my battles...................freak out over every joke or think I said........I wnted a friend

Video games

So if u read my other blog today u know I want some games.... I'm taking donations of wii and xbox games... I will take anything... I'm interested in black ops 2 grid 2 far cry 3 grandtheft auto and assassin's creed... oh I also would like game informer magazines

me :)